There is a personal mantra I adopted quite a number of years ago, probably in 2013, sitting with Reverend Cathy Norman up in Ojai. She told me about the Unity Church founders who had a kind of contract with God, stating what they were up to and what they wanted in return. I found this compelling and created my own, which goes like this: “I live my life in service to humanity with every fiber of my being, and in exchange I receive unlimited prosperity, magnificent companionship, and unbridled joy.” I have uttered this prayer what must be tens of thousands of times in the last twelve years. It’s my go-to at every New Moon, the prayer I use when I hit that multidimensional level in my trance meditations, and clearly I have relied on it as a regulating prayer countless times.
Right now it is 2025, I’m 62 years old, and we’re moving into the Full Moon in Aries. It’s right on my foundational axis, with an orb of influence of 44 minutes, about three-quarters of a degree. It’s very exact, and I love the numerology of 44, the master number of eight, where abundance and prosperity live. The number four itself is about structure, the idea being that once you’ve built something strong and solid, you reach seven and immerse yourself in your relationship with Spirit. The prosperity and abundance you experience at eight become possible because of that foundation.
So it’s interesting to me that this very precise Full Moon, with its profound capacity to help us release unconscious blocks, is shining light on my Libra Midheaven, Mars, and Moon conjunction. That’s a lot of my consciousness expressed in the outer world and my career. Moon and Mars there have kept my actions and unconscious drives pointed in that direction all my life, and that has never been truer than it is now. This is my service to humanity in action.
The word prosperity in my mantra is deliberate. People have asked, “Why not abundance?” I explain that abundance is the spiritual principle, and prosperity is only one of its forms. I know abundance in my skin at this point in my life, and prosperity is the necessary ingredient to sustain my life of service.
I’ve always had a unique relationship with money. Saturn is in Aquarius in my second house, but also with Part of Fortune. When my friends in our early twenties would say, “I just got some money and now I have to buy new tires,” in angsty complaint, my thought was, “Every time something unanticipated comes up, I always have the unexpected income I need, every time.” I didn’t have to learn that lesson; it was preinstalled. About 12 years ago, I learned to focus on cash flow rather than income, to let go of attachment to what I was earning on a Tuesday, and to rest in the grace of knowing money flows in, money flows out, and if you don’t mess with that, grace is possible.
Now my business is quite prosperous. I buy what I want and deny myself nothing, yet I don’t buy anything I don’t need, only what I value and what contributes to my comfort. When I need new sheets, they’re good ones. Inflation has sent food prices soaring, but I still eat as I always have, and it doesn’t even occur to me to worry about the increased outflow of cash. When I did CrossFit, I spent freely on the care of my body through regular acupuncture, chiropractic, and frequent massages. This is how I maintain a constant sense of access to the energy we call money. This is my unlimited prosperity in action, and of course, I’m always open to more.
Yesterday I had a delightful surprise when the person with whom I share the yummiest intimacy happened to be in my neighborhood and dropped by. Eventually, we watched an episode of Wednesday together. My friend leaned against me on one side, while Penelope, the true love of my life, curled against the other, her head in my lap. I had a moment where I thought to share my awareness of it, but I pulled back. It felt like something meant just for me. This was my magnificent companionship in clear expression, and my heart felt full.
The unbridled joy is the easier part. I’m built for joy and for spreading it around. Of course, it took decades of work to soften and restrain it so the unbridled part didn’t overwhelm. I have Venus and an anaretic Sun in Leo, and Leo rules the heart and invented joy. That final degree of mastery means I express the full Leo archetype. It’s what allowed me to know joy from my first breath, but after years of unmasking, I now live in a time where I know joy more deeply. Happiness is circumstantial; it will always pass, but joy is internal and not tied to conditions. It is the most beautiful experience a body can have, and it attracts more of itself when we allow it to flow.
The last two years have been difficult. The experience of chronic fatigue and other symptoms and side effects kept me in bed two to six hours every day, only able to tend to work and self-care. During that time, as my body expressed such diminishment, my inner world exploded. Trance meditations now take me to extraordinary places, and I feel completely free of the wounds of the past.
Of course, I still have an unconscious and a personality, so I bump into that as we all do. But the internal mastery I’ve generated in the past two years has blown me away. As a side note, about four to five weeks before this Full Moon, five months of supplements and nutritional interventions began to lift my body’s expression of illness to a much more comfortable level. I still require more rest than most, but far less than before.
My second Saturn return was in 2022. That same year, I entered a four-year cycle of Pluto Inconjuncting first my Venus, then my Sun. This year, Neptune and Saturn have picked up the mantle, forming that same fork-in-the-road geometry. Pluto scraped off layers of my understanding of love, intimacy, personal value (Venus), and also my sense of identity (Sun).
This year Neptune began whispering to me to release even more resistance to living a devotional life, while Saturn has demanded I ground that devotion in action. By devotional lifestyle, I mean weaving prayer into everything I do, each car ride, every meal, every trip to the dog park, every exchange with another soul. The impact has been deeply felt, and this energetic support continues to hold me through next spring.
There’s no mistaking this as a moment to pause, lay down on the altar of change and transformation, and let tomorrow’s Full Moon do its good work on me. The Aries Moon is on my Imum Coeli, the bottom of the chart, representing security, home, and the foundation that supports everything I do. I’m releasing blocks to that part of my life. I don’t always know what I need to release, so I return to my go-to prayer:
“Great Spirit, Mother Father God, and in the name of the beloved I Am That I Am, I am now ready to release anything and everything, known and unknown, conscious and unconscious, that would stand in the way of creating the perfect foundation on which to express my life’s purpose and be of service to humanity. And so it is.”
I rarely share publicly about my own experiences, and I still hesitate to do so in teaching, though I’m becoming more comfortable as I hear that it helps others. In the past, I used to grab all the light in the room and could easily render others invisible, and I cringe at that long-ago neediness I’m now free of. This is a big one for me, this Full Moon, marking a moment where I must consider everything about my work in a consciously aware way and trust that whatever leaves my life now is in support of that work.
My service brings me great joy and reminds me of my favorite quote from the Indian saint Rabindranath Tagore:
“I slept and dreamed that life was joy. I woke and found that life was service. I served and found that service is joy.”
Have at it!
